People

It's crazy how things turn out, during the day, week, month. I think it's so sad that the people who put pain and negativity into this world don't realize how hard it comes right back to you. Then in the long run when things aren't so pretty for them they wonder why. Maybe they should try to be less selfish. In fact, I think everyone is a culprit of this. Some people learn, and others don't.

Sigh...

So there has to be about 27 different paths in front of me to choose from. Recently I feel like I am being pulled in every direction possible. It's really starting to take a toll on me physically and mentally. Sometimes I just want to stop and hide from it all. But I know that won't solve anything. It's really insane what has been thrown at me. I ask myself all the time, what should I do? And honestly I just don't know. My life is being tested in every way possible. For now, I will soak it all in. And let things flow as usual. Hopefully the decisions I make are for the best.

Get out of my mind!

I was going to blog about the MJ movie. But I decided not at the moment since my boyfriend is a mind reader and ruined the essence of it all... Lol...


Until next time...

Mmm.

Surprise Dunkin Donuts breakfast in the AM is awesome. And so is my awesome boyfriend. I am currently listening to the Glee Cover of Journey's 'Don't Stop Believing'. I love it! I hear the Glee cast is going to go on tour. I am very excited for that. Busy day today!

Oh Nov, 5 where are you?! (Joel Olsteen) :)

There IS a perfect fit for me :)

Right now, Im home watching this amazing God made creation sleep on my couch. I can barely type this because I am completely speechless. God has granted me with this beautiful person and Im still wondering if Im dreaming! I am so thankful to have such an amazing person back in my life. He is definitely my guy :)

There is another perfect fit in my life. And her name is Arlene. I look up to her and respect her to the fullest extent. She always reminds me of how amazing it is to have faith in your life. I am also thankful she was put in my path. Every time I see her she is seriously glowing. And I think I know why. Shes a great friend and I want to wash my hands with her soon... (inY) lol

God winks!

I am seriously in tears! I just found out Joel Olsteen is coming to the Bronx. And I can meet him! I think this is a God wink... The events happening recently have been a little rough for me and tough for me to get over. I am trying but I think this gift from God will help me get through. This weekend couldn't have been any more special and beautiful and now I receive this information? Sigh. The power of coincidence is beautiful!

Need's time!

Where in the world is time going?! So little time to do all these things I have ahead. I think I'm misusing a lot of my time. Possibly this is a waste of time, but it helps in a way. 

"Only time will tell..." I wonder if this is true. I guess I'll find out.

Past, Present, and Future

And here we go....Happy Lewis? ;) Well, 2009 has been probably the most challenging and rewarding year for me. My life has definitely become more interesting, fun, and at times completely stressful. Currently I believe I have such a rewarding job. I run an after school program in a High School in the Bronx. The school is pretty rough, but I am confident I will help these kids discover things they never even knew about themselves. I haven't officially started with the students (that's Oct, 5) but I've met some of them and I already see how much potential and drive they have. It's weird how I even ended up here in the first place. Back in May, when I was working with my former Employer, this job didn't even exist. In May is when I found out I was pregnant. It was completely unexpected news. I didn't plan for it of course, considering I wasn't ready to be a parent. When I found out the news, it was like someone branded me for about 3 seconds, gave me a wake-up push and I instantly started planning for what was up ahead. My life revolved around doing everything that was needed for my child. I saved any money I worked for and flourished my brain with "Mommy" knowledge. Honestly I don't believe you can get the true knowledge of a Mother until you actually become a Mom and raise your child. It was pretty rough being pregnant and working with Middle School students. Especially coaching the cheer team. I couldn't do anything I use to. I wasn't hands on anymore and it was pretty hard for me. Competition season is one of the most tiring and stressful times and being pregnant just made things more rough. On June 1st, I miscarried the child to be born in January. It was so tough for me to deal with this, I had made plans for the path I was given, but obviously my life was going down another. Around this time was also when I decided I would not go back to working with my middle school students. I had been working their 3 years and I felt like my time there was over and I needed to move on. The summer was a pretty sad one, but it was when I realized that I needed to start planning for MY future. Being pregnant was one of the most amazing things I've felt. But I feel like I've been given the opportunity to grow and succeed in my life so eventually I can be more prepared and ready for children in the future. After this, everything in my life has been pretty uphill from here. I landed this new amazing job that brings growth, good money, and wonderful opportunities for me, I'm healthier than I was last year, and my hair isn't falling out! I have this Group Discussion website starting soon which I know will be a total success, and let's not forget about my Cheer apparel business. All of the smaller aspirations I have seem to be falling in place and leading me closer to my life time goals. I really couldn't be happier right now. The only person probably nagging me in my life right now is Eddy about the game Aion. I want to hurt you Eddy! Lol.. Kidding.... 

Until next time....